MY JOURNEY STARTS WHEN I STOP

MY FIRST LESSON OF MUSIC!

                            

डूबकर जाना कि तू गहरा कितना है,यूँ तो कई बार तैरकर तेरे किनारो को छुआ था,फिर गोता लगाया ये सोचकर कि अबके तेरी ज़मीन से कंकड़ उठाकर ही लाऊंगा,डूबता गया डूबता गया,आखिर लोटना पड़ा,इस सूरज को भी तो जल्दी हे तुझमे समाने कि,रात भर रहता है,संग फिर भी दिल नहीं भरता इसका?

  

हाँ सुना था थाओ नहीं है तेरा,ऊँची इमारतो क नीव तो गहरी ही होती है,माना कि तू गहरा है पर कुछ तो हे जिस पर तू ठहरा हैं ,बीस बाइस यही कुछ उम्र होगी उसकी जो संगीत के सागर से मोती लाने कि ज़िद पर था!
                            उम्र के इस पड़ाब पर दिल बेचैन रहता है,जानने सीखने कि इक्छा भी तीव्र होती है!मेरी भी इक्षा थी सुओ को जानने की!

गुरु ने कहा-सात सुर होते है!यह मैने पहली बार नाह सुना था,पर सुरो के बारे में इससे जायदा भी नहीं सुना था,खाने का मजा तो खाकर ही लिया जा सकता है,और फिर बनाने वाला वो हो तो क्या बात है!
                                    शिकन भरी उन उंगलियो ने हमोनियम के घर कि सीडियो पर ढुमकते हुए चलना शुरू कर दिया,कुछ आठ सात कदम चल रुक गई वहाँ,जहाँ से चली थी!उंगलियो के कैटवाक से पैदा हुए स्वर कानो के रस्ते सीधे दिल में उतर गए,सुरो को इतना सुन्दर और अलग अलग नहीं देखा था पहले कभी!

गुरु-इन्ही सात सुरो में दुनिया का संगीत समाया है!संगीत भाषा से परे है!
      भाषा बदल जाती है पर सुर वही रहते है!
      सुर मिठाई में छुपी शक्कर से होते है मिठाइया अलग ही सकती है पर शक्कर एक हैं!

                                    गुरु ने एक बटन दबाकर निकली आवाज़ से अपनी आवाज़ मिलाने को कहा,कुछ चार पांच प्रयास के बाद में ये करने में सफल हुआ!उन्होंने कहा अपनी आवाज़ को ध्यान से सुनो!मेरी आवाज़ ऐसी लग रही t थी जेसे  बच्चा अभी चलना सीखा हो,जिसके हर कदम पर उसके गिरने का डर होता है!मैंने अपनी लऄखाती आवाज़ को कभी नहीं सुना था लोग तो कहते थे कि अच्छा गाते हो,झूठ बोलते थे या सुना नहीं कभी!
                                क्लास ख़त्म हुई,गुरु को अलबिदा कहा,मन ख़ुशी से भरा था,जैसे कोई खजाना हाथ लग गया था खजाना ही तो था बस दरवाजा खोलने कि देर थी,बस चाबी मिल जाती!
                                 बैग से आईपॉड निकाला कानो में लगाके सीडीओ को कूदता फाँदता नीचे आ गया,गुरु कि हारमोनियम पर उंगलियो कि तरह,कुछ सीढिया लांगकर,जल्दी ही सीख जाउंगा,सात ही तो स्वर है!एक दिन में एक तो अगले सप्ताह तक,सोचता हुआ घर चला गया!
                                 अब में भी चलता हुँ!सूरज खड़कियो से देख रहा है,उसकी तो आदत है छेड़ने कि मुझे पता है मुझे अब जाना है!

WHEN IT IS HARD TO BEAR!

Bottles sound wake me up.My white sweater filled with stuff of grasses,and I did not ow when my eyes closed…

Ran away from home?

(Chewing tabaco,collecting beer bottles,bearing good colour combination dirty clothes I young boy asked).

How did you come to know (Instantly I asked)

If you really,than go back,looking good,your family would have been caring for you in a better way. (he advised)

Goes to school or not?(I asked)

(Being so much burden of degrees without job,we ask for education of every child in India)

No (he said)

Never been?(I asked)

Till Third standard (he replied)

Why did you leave than?(I asked)

I ran away from home,before two years(he replied)

Why?

My father  kept on scolding and abusing,always used to say to go away,one fine day I did it!(in anger)

Why didn't you go back?(I asked)

Why didn't they search our for me!(he argued)

Bloody they would have been!

If they would have been doing surely they found!(he said)...

Ok,What's your name?

Dheeraj of mine and Braj my brother’s

He is no more he committed suicide,He got rid of home’s violence,My mother told all about that,I was just two years old then!(he narrated all without asking)

(While saying he was trying to find out those unseen face in me)

Do you drink(he asked)

Sometimes..(I said)

Don’t do that,It will ruin your heart!(he requested)

How would you get  this empty bottles if we will not drink!(I argued)

I don’t suggest it to everyone,but I felt it for you!(he left me wordless)

What is in your bag?(he asked)

Books and some documents.

I saw it all,remembering those beautiful days of school and colleges,he was shocked knowing that I have 19 classes,was counting that if he didn't left in which  classes he would be,watching my games certificate he remembered that how badly he was beaten up for playing with coins in childhood,as he was no more a child by  profession!

Sun set down as I turned over all pages,showing that he instead me to drink so that he could covert his odd number of bottles in to even!

Take some rupees from me,instead wasting my rupees!

No,that I don’t(washed my open eyes)

I went for an Interview before coming to my home!

DISCOVERING MYSELF........

बडा सा घर छोटा सा इंसान किसी को खोज रहा था,शायद खुदको कहाँ मिलूंगा घर में बहुत खोजा जब न मिला  निकल पड़ा घर से,नदी के किनारे एक पुराने मंदिर पर मेरी खोज खत्म हुई सोचा आवाज देकर बुला लू पर थोडा दर रहा था कहीं आवाज सुनकर यहाँ से भी न भाग जाये,दबे पैर मंदिर में घुसा,मंदिर कि खूबसूरत नक्कासी के बीच नदी कि किनारे भगवान से बातें करते सादू  उसके यहीं कहीं होने का संकेत दे रहे थे संसार से थका मंदिर कि सीडियो पैर बैठ गया सोचा उससे ही पूछ लू कहा हे वो आँखें बंद कि और घुल गया खुदमे।

SAMARTH KO KACHU DOSH NAHI..POWERFUL PEOPLE ARE NOT BLAMED

I see you to know,How am I? I am blessed with two beautiful eyes,but I need a mirror to see myself.My society is my mirror.Although I pretend to be unaffected but your reflection affects me,I Ignore it at my failure and when I get succeed my ears get active.Being praised by you is the certificate of my success,Which I can show to others,neither I have  succeed many times in my life.My mind makes its own different rules in different condition,if I follow it you get annoyed.I can't depart from anyone,I can't make so much change in myself and why should you change?

 Everything can't change,thank God there is someone who is always ready to change,Change in weather took winter for us which converted our General coach of our train in to Ac one,It was fully packed as our destination was on the way to Bombay,It was Rahul & Me were going to his home Burhanpur.

Although,I have never traveled in AC coach,but I feel that,besides Ac both have the same facilities,In General coach without Internet access you can find multiple solutions of your query,can connect to many unknown friends,can chat on the spot,there is no  place to sleep so everyone is online,Playing Sudoku is compulsory for everyone to get settle,and as the game over,pop corn vendor asks for the side,and it is the only place in the world where you can get money back guarantee on tea.

I tossed up a pop corn, but could not get it back as mind stuck with some angry birds who were gazing from the top,My eyes connected at the speed of 1 GB kbps.

What ?(She pretend to ask)

Nothing(I pretended)

As she heard virus alert of his father she tried to disconnect by opening magazine in between,her eyes were still watching from the edge of the magazine.Probably she would watching that I am watching or not,In that game at every stages she gets 100 points,when someone watch.

                                                      It smell romantic song of kishore kumar as his hometown Knandwa arrives,It was a signal for angry bird to log out. Rahul is busy with his phone,I too read all swimming massages,which I kept unread for such time.

Train arrives at the city of cotton.........!

Cotton is floating all around in all possible forms,every third person is weaving clothe as all of them have got a project of covering the earth.City is filled with people wearing white kurta pajama and topi and is historical enough to look like a masjid.

                                                    Going through crowded street along with ever sounding textile machinery,We entered in to a Big gate of fort but the story is same at another side.

Had the Emperor covered the whole city by a boundary wall(I asked)

No it was fort,later city entered in it.(Rahul answerd)

to be continued.......!

THOSE DAYS OF LEARNING!

Cool breeze when enters via corner,creates storm,it turns some pages unread,scattered hairs is the signal of our bus arrived on highway...Documentary of nature is running on window with wording Dil he chota sa on FM.

A bus filled with young Engineers and Managers,we the Managers are like dry fruit on engineers chocolates,They are great who develop Software,Machinery,Building,Electronics and what not,still there is a need of a Manager to manage the business of all of this,without which it value nothing!

What is the need to do courses like MBA for that,owner of our collage couldn't pass the exam of 4th class and he is a Diamond in coal business.

Of course one can learn through the experience of many years,Management classes is all about sharing experience of successful person,but what is the need to reinvent the wheel better to work further!     

SMALL TOWN,A PLACE OF HAPPINESS!

"Being a slave in a bigger place is better than being a king of a small place"Is it like that,
                                                                                In My Management program, I learned so much about managing things, saving time, I can do it now in a better way, but why there is lake of time, while I am saving more? It was more, when I didn't know how to save.Where I am lacking behind.I blew the balloon so much that, Neither I could see the world nor the world could see me,I realized it when it got busted. It is important to balance the life!